clouded mind

finally.....after undergoing loads of mental stress....i decided to come to delhi for getting some right guidance for my mission i.e mission IAS....yup IAS very easy to write n a matter of honor for anyone to add it to their profile..but clearing d exams is not so easy.... preparing for it in a right way is xtremely important...so delhi was d very obvious n favored destination....shifting to delhi wasn't as easy as saying it....coming to an altogether different environment,getting accustomed to d dreadful cold weather here,d temps almost dipping to 2-3 degrees,leaving d all comfy home n family,n all this superceded by d recent happenings in d capital,accentuating d dilemma.....
a tryst with the mind,running thru all inner conflicts,i made a firm decision despite of all these,i had to be strong....its only when u dont have any other option,u realise how strong u are..

  first two days were pretty stressful,almost making me think if i really made a wise decision or i just hurried onto it....later as d people starting interacting with me here,n getting accustomed to d environment here,made me feel comfortable,,atleast its not as hard as i anticipated it to be,maybe those were my fears which made it more difficult for me,almost like trying to not sleep to avoid a nightmare....life is never easy,but it is not that difficult as we assume it to be... we just need to get along with it,just 'like the flowing river' as paulo coelho wrote it in that book.... :)